Words from Alyssa

Turning back the time as if you were still present  Back to the very first day, my eyes intertwined with yours  Back to the start of our conversation when you first said hello  How captivated and ignorant I was of the charm that you would later show  Maybe if I had appreciated your presence a little more,  Then we would have had more time to explore The root of this frustration lies in that I overlooked those beautiful eyes  If I could just turn back the time and give you a push Your confidence would learn to fight for me in that moment  And how it would soar Truly it was a sight to behold The stuttering of your words and the nervousness presented in your body  I find it amusing how one could put such confidence forth but still hesitate like being trapped by an unexplainable force. Written by Alyssa Chin Photo Credit: Ron Hicks

Recently, the thought "Why does one lose themselves when they love so hard?" always kept popping up. Maybe because they care too much? I would try to answer knowing that wasn't even close. Today, I was given some devasting truth and the reason I can't even rebut is because it's true. Why does one lose themselves loving others so deeply? Rather than losing myself, I always viewed it as that's just what love is. That was the toxic and self-indulging perspective I always used to counter the true meaning. What I want isn't necessarily what others want, and I don't accept that too well. Distance is inevitable and in my case, the best alternative than to lie. We all need our own space, I completely agree but I thought that there would be more sympathy in knowing that I can't have what others generally do. Was this a form of manipulation or was it the concept of temptation? The psychologist can't even figure out her own mind. Many times I wondered if ...