Words from Alyssa

I think the irrevocable knowledge of the fact that you will never be mine again really seems to be making a rather frequent visit to my mind. There are days where I go without thinking about us. And then there are days when all I can think about is you. They say it heals with time, but it's been almost half a year and well as hurt as I may be that you chose to live a life without me, I still have to find solace in the fact that we existed. That at one point in our lives we met and we had something beautiful. I still look for you in everything and everywhere I go and I guess, I still need time to grieve. I've been reflecting, healing, growing, fighting, living, trying, holding on, loving, dreaming, eating, working, and feeling. I've been feeling the effects of your absence and growing out of the attachment/bond that we had created. I've been trying to let go of the words that held me back. All the "I love you" and the "I promise". It's been hard b...

Promises kept, Promises broken I promised to love you and have kept it as strong today as it was before you uttered the words "I love you" from your lips I promised to stand in your corner and I still do Promises that hurt become promises that are broken Promises kept, Promises broken If only the hug you gave before I left could keep its warmth  If only I could remember the scent that trailed behind If only I could keep the tears from falling the last time we said "I love you" If only I could forget what it was like being in your embrace If only I could forget the source of joy that sprouted each time I was with you If only I could remember and forget at the same time Promises kept, Promises broken Why have you broken your promises? I still carry that broken promise with me everywhere It's seen every tear and every plead   It's heard conversations of many  And traveled further than it should've But I've held on to your promise even closer Hoping that...