Your ghost.

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I can still see your shadow everywhere I look. Your essence fills up our tiny room where we shared what seemed to be an eternity. You were my lifelong partner and no one will be able to take that title from you. Even though you have now left me, our love will never fade and I will always remember our time together. The happy days, sad days, off days, and lazy days. I will cherish them all because you are my one and only wife. It saddens me that we will never see each other again for a while and that I didn't get to say a proper goodbye but I know that as I continue to live on, I shall live for both of us. 

From coincidentally meeting at a grocery store to a first date at a hotel to a well-spent night and to the day when we got together. We were held together by our love. The vows that we made at the altar to the day we moved in together and to raising a family. The struggles of parenting that we went through together and the struggles of holding our family together and then sending them off to the world, I'm so happy I did it all with you. I still see you everywhere I go, your smile and us talking and holding hands. 

I really wish that we could have gone together but I guess one of us had to stay behind to support the family until the time is right. To getting promotions and moving into a bigger house, to family dinners for Christmas, Easter, and Thanksgiving. Celebrating our birthdays when the kids were gone to growing old together. Your presence was always with me. I wish we could have met earlier so we could have spent more time together, so we could have enjoyed more of this world and gone on a longer journey. But I am grateful for the joys I got to experience with you. 

Growing old together, we were upset at each other every day. We sounded like children every time we cursed at each other but we couldn't help laughing about it afterward. We could never have been upset with each other longer than a day. I'm happy that you came into my life. I love you, my wife. See you soon, my love.


Written by Alyssa Chin
Photo credits: Holly Warburton


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