Promise you’ll be there when it’s over.

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I gave you acceptance 
Which was something I didn't want to do
You'll probably leave just like the others do
Because there are no promises you won't 
It doesn't make sense to get attached to you

You say you will take care of me 
And you won't depart
But when you can no longer stay 
What will you say?

When you are tired of your unbounded contract 
You will pack up and leave 
Because that's the right thing to do
And even if you stay, it won't be the same 

You will be tied back to an innocent promise
It will more likely turn into a broken promise
You aren't tied to a contract so how could I be sure
That when you are in a fury
You won't slam the door

You say you love me and cherish me so 
But will it stay the same even when you're ready to go
The misconceptions that could take place 
And how easily you could perceive me 
I'm afraid to believe you because you could just be like the rest

You see me as an angel but I'm really in disguise
You see me as innocent but I see myself as mischievous
I'm a horrible and detachable person 
I don't mean to deceive your eyes but that's how I survive 

You take care of me as if I were your own 
But what will become of me when I choose to lean
Your promises I hold dear 
But broken is what I truly see

Yet I still am attached 
Because I crave love 
I'm like a child that needs constant care
Please don't betray me 
Because you found out I wasn't a good choice. 


Written by Alyssa Chin
Photo Credits: James Needham






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