Parallel People.

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Parallel People were never meant to meet, but our existence defied fate and somehow we overlapped into similar universes. We knew we were never meant to be together and never supposed to meet but we lusted for one another, we craved each other's touch. You were gentle and compassionate while I on the other hand was worrisome and problematic but you made all my emotions feel like explosions. You showered me with love and that made me become greedier for more and constantly bulldozed the walls surrounding my heart. You showed me you could be trusted and I wanted to but it was so hard to because of my ambivalence. I found comfort in your presence and as you continued to be a constant being in my life, I started depending on you more and more. I became selfish and didn't want you to leave my side not even for a moment. 

To constantly want you to watch over me because of my greed. I lusted after you and still do. You were everything that I wanted, you were everything I needed to become someone who I wanted to be. You were in a way a stepping stone for me to find out who I was. You were a part of my journey for self-betterment because I wanted to be better. I wasn't sick or anything I just had a few problems and you reassured me that these feelings of negativity were only temporary and you would remove them all. I held on to your words and I wanted to continue to hold you to them because they were in a way unspoken promises and I wanted you to fulfill them. 

One single tear, it was enough to prove how happy I became. A smile that radiated my happiness and a laugh that contains real joy. This was the first time I'd seen myself this happy since I changed. I wasn't sad anymore and I didn't have to watch myself cry anymore but I could see that something was still holding me back. I could see the pain that I was trying to hide. I'm confused. I'm trying to figure out if I'm genuinely happy or if I'm in an illusion. One person, that's all it took to make me want to change. One person gave me love and that person gave me an abundance.

I could say I'm in love but I can't say because I can't accept it. I could see myself struggling to cope with my feelings about what I wanted and still want. I could say that I didn't know of love and didn't want to experience it because I didn't know how to accept it nor did I know how to give it. But that didn't stop me from taking on the risk to love a stranger. That didn't stop me from giving my love with the hopes of receiving it back. I gave all my love and he gave it all back. I was happy he did but one thing that won't escape my cloud of thoughts is that Parallel People were never meant to meet. 

Written by Alyssa Chin

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