The Unpublished Little Girl.

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I hate this
Everything about it
I hate this feeling of hate
The feeling I don't belong
My thoughts don't belong 
Does that equate to nothing?
I feel nothing
But I feel everything

Look at the hidden scars she scatters over her body
When people see them, she gets praised
For they do not see the actuality but are masked by the invisibility 
She seeks everything yet chases nothing
She lives like nothing for existing
She exists in hoping that it will be living
She dies, but only on the inside 
She lies but only to prevent a sacrifice
She's scared and broken 

Run, run, run little girl
Cry, cry, cry little girl
Be free from the shackles of you and me
Because  she sees what I see
Look further beyond the portrait
Look deeper past the words
For there lies a girl that storms when bringing up her past

Fly, fly, fly little girl 
Sing, sing, sing little girl 
Your songs are to be echoed in one-pitch harmony
Deafening to the ears of those who refuse to hear 
Not being capable of the one true thing that matters most
Her being. 

Feel, feel, feel little girl
Scream, scream, scream little girl
All your pains be washed clean 
All your tears be dried up 
All your agony disappear 

Fight, fight, fight little girl
For your life and for mine
Don't forget that we are one of a kind
We see each other
Not by circumstance
Not by chance
Because we exist together

Hush, hush little girl 
For your voice shouldn't be heard 
Your voice being trapped and forced is the reason for your doom
Live, live little girl
Remember that you are destined
Destined to be someone 
Destined to live 
Destined to die
Destined to know what it is like to be alive

Forget, forget little girl 
Everything you once knew
Forget the ones that inflicted and abused
Forget the ones that took and tortured 
Forget the ones that bear no weight
Fake it

Dream, dream little girl
A dream so big that the stars will hear 
They will hear your pleads and bless you with what you need
Dream a dream that you shan't forget 
Remember what it's like to be a dreamless kid
Dream your dream to your heart's content 
Dream more and more for each star you pick 

Take, take little girl
Everything they once stole from you 
Take it back and claim it as yours
Take your hurt and give it in return 
Everything intertwined and woven together 
Mix and throw it to the abductors

Love, love little girl 
The scars and the hurt
Hurt, hurt little girl
The ones you love
That's what you do best
That's what you feel best
Remember the voice of the one calling your name

Remember little girl 
The life is chosen for the one who begs
Change, change little girl
Everything that you never knew is within you
Climb, climb little girl
Higher and higher 
Until you get what's mine

Fight, fight little girl
Because you will be trampled and bruised 
You will be forgotten and used 
Harsh realities and truths shall be the enemy of you 
Your words are like knives ready to pierce the skin
Run from the crimes you're about to commit
Never stop running 
Never keep hiding 
Never live in the way you did 

It's alright little girl 
There are people to understand
Some people try at least 
Hug, hug, hug little girl 
Forget the touch but remember the fears
They never know what it's like
To be touched with skin-to-skin contact
Soul-to-soul embrace

Fake, fake, fake little girl 
All those little emotions that you feel
Fake for those who don't even try 
And for the ones that do try 
Try to give them some more time
They know nothing about you or me

You are not the enemy that you once knew. 

Written by: Alyssa Chin


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