An unforgettable dream.
I was dancing happily with you in my arms then you suddenly vanished into thin air. Where are you? Where did you go? Remember our promise six years ago. You were always the light wherever you walked and I was your shadow. This reference has been used so much that even I started comparing it to my life and you were just the right character to match it with. Your smile would make a grinch like me want to feel happy. But your smile faded into the darkness. What happened? Talk to me.
Drifting, we are splitting apart, where have you gone? I crave to see your smile. Remember the days when you would drag me out to play? No don't leave yet, I'm not ready. I should have told you. It never occurred that you would be leaving me so soon. But wait remember our promise.
Please just a little while longer until I can accept the fact that you weren't the one for me. Until I accept that I am not worthy of the everlasting smile you would wear. But why didn't you tell me? Is it because of my scars? I'm sorry I should have been there. Where was I? Were you calling for me? Was I not around? I'm sorry please forgive me.
Excuses, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry I didn't mean it. It was a joke, it was a lie, I didn't mean it. You're all I need, I can't deny that. But I couldn't say that at the time. I'm sorry, please forgive me. I know now that you were always there when I needed you but why couldn't I be there when you needed me when you cried and begged for me. I left you unattended for your demons to prey on you. I couldn't be your knight in shining armor because I thought that you would fall deeper into the darkness. I distanced myself thinking I was protecting you when I was worsening the pain. I'm sorry. Don't you remember that promise we made?
Remember our promise, please remember. Don't give in yet. I still need you, I will be there just please remember. You said you wouldn't ever break it, that you would always remember, please, please, I won't do it again. I won't deny you ever again, it was a mistake. I love you! Please remember!
I won't be able to smile if you don't remember, you want me to smile right? You want me to be happy? Just remember our promise and every day I spend with you I will place a smile upon my face brighter than even yours. You won't have to worry about me again and I would have to be the one worrying that your smile never fades. Don't let it fade now, because of me? Don't waste your happiness on a person like me. I am not worthy of you, your unwavering love, and your smile because if I get too attached I won't be able to let you go, ever! Please just smile for me again and again and again. Please remember our promise.
Your gentle and soft hands brushed against my cheek. My face lit up with joy thinking you remembered our promise. Then you uttered "I'm sorry too" and closed your eyes. I've never felt so alone until the moment you said your goodbye. I felt nothing but felt everything. It has to be a dream, reality can't be this cruel. My cheeks flooded with tears, screaming with pain, and the agony in my heart and my chest hallowed. I still wished you remembered our promise.
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