A fragment of our memories.

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It was a period where our hearts were intertwined with one another. The period I was able to say that I owned you and you owned me. The moment of satisfaction and pleasure that we both gave each other. The happiness and sadness of our essence in one room as we shared a scared bond that was bound to be broken by a single scrape. 

Our love seemed somewhat childish and simple but at the same time experienced the whole world with just the touch of our fingertips. The days where we could roll around and laugh in harmony became a  scene filled with horror and gore. I guess I could say the short moment of our joie de vivre ended with a bang that stopped my heart. 

I ended up sacrificing myself to something completely unknown. You were truly mysterious but that was the fun of having you around. All your secrets and lies, all the deception and cruelty made me yearn for you. It gave me an inexplicable feeling of lust and I undoubtedly started fantasizing about what we could have been but in the end, it turned out to be what we couldn't have been. 

You imprinted yourself into my memories, now I can't go a day of thinking that we did this and that, here and there. I can't tell if what we had was just a figment of my imagination or if it was something precious that I had lost. The possibility of us no longer being each other's, no longer having the authority to call each other mine, no longer laughing and smiling and sharing our space, no pleasure, nothing.

You left a void that constantly needs to be filled for I am craving more than what I am being given, more than what you left me with, more than the memories that you gave me. I want more, more of you, more of us. 

I haven't given up on what we could have been. The thought of us remains constant in my head and our time together is still vivid and fresh. My existence was made to co-exist with yours. We had a fleeting moment, now it's only a fleeting memory. We met each other and passed just like meeting a busboy at a restaurant. Our time was short but fulfilled. I still can't accept what happened to our love but I hope I can say that you feel the same.

Love Sylvie.

Written by Alyssa Chin

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