My happy days.
I watched as you walked down the aisle to someone who wasn't me. Your eyes glistened, you were in the most beautiful dress and I had to silently smile for your happiness. Where did it go wrong? We were so happy together, I seriously thought that you were the woman whom I ought to marry. You were my everything, my light, my happiness, my joy, my safe place, and my love but we drifted, further than I thought we would have and left our love dying. As I see you I imagine what if I had only left my parents, would we have been together?
My love still goes on and as strong as ever but I guess you were bound to leave, bound to be taken away by the cruelty of destiny. You were my first love and will be my only love because I guarantee that I will not be able to love anyone as much as I love you. It hurts that I won't be able to hold you in my arms and have happy days when we would go for walks or get ice cream. It hurts that I have to watch you go to another man that seems to be your ideal person. The one who was meant for you.
I'm sorry that I hurt you these past years and I'm happy that you were able to find someone new because all I want for you is to be happy, just a smile on your face will make me happy even if it's not with me, even if I am not the one bringing you the happiness I want to know that your smile won't fade as I made you cry. I don't want to ever see you cry because it hurts me so much. I won't be able to wipe your tears anymore, that's someone else's responsibility now.
I'm happy that you came into my life even if it was only for a short time, they were the best moments of my life and they are worth everything to me. These memories I will cherish as you move on and I will look back at what our love was, as you were the first to ever make me as happy as I was then. I wish that I was the one standing at the end to meet you and as you reached the altar I would hold your hand, kiss you on the cheek and give you the biggest smile because that's how much you mean to me.
Just once if only you could smile at me the way you used to I would let you go but knowing what I ask for will make others unhappy and give you a difficult time I only ask of you to achieve all your dreams. You have so much in store for you and so much to experience I want you to live to your fullest with a smile on your face and even if you cry I want you to remember that you are loved and no matter what happens there will always be someone to wipe your tears. I pushed myself to come to this wedding as I wanted to see you one more time to bid you a proper farewell. To see you start off your new life as a woman with a bright future surrounded with love. My heart hurts so much that I have to be holding back the tears so people won't find me weird.
As you say your vows to the man across from you, you're so happy, your cheeks are flushed but it's not me. It pains me so much, you look so happy with another man. I hope he treats you well, make sure to eat every day because I know you like to go on diets, make sure to go to bed early because you can't get up when you sleep late, and make sure you have everything before you leave the house because you are quite forgetful and finally make sure to go home and tell your husband everything about your day because you liked to keep things bottled up. My last wish is, be happy my love, you deserve the world. You look truly beautiful and you will always continue to shine in my heart. I will forever love you, my beautiful, amazing, loving, and joyful heartache.
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